Keeping In Touch With My Soul

I struggled to remember

To keep count of how many counts had passed

To keep time with the beat as it raced ahead of me

I struggled to keep in mind

Keep in mind all the details

The little details that kept slipping off this slippery slippery mind 

I struggled because my body wouldn't listen to me

Wouldn't respond to my commands

Feeble stimuli that became feebler still as they reached the tips of my fingers 

My mind behaved like a broken tectonic plate 

Some unknown force forcing apart its pieces

Sending them floating gently away out of sight

I watched on, staring helplessly at myself

My eyes following my consciousness

As it dissolved and re-emerged only to dissolve again in the endless abyss of nothing

And as long as I stared at this nothingness

At the sea of stillness and the slowly emerging calm

This expanse began to surround me

To engulf me and pull me further in

Further into this clear calm of nothing

On and on until there was no milestone left

Deeper and deeper until there was no measure of depth

No map and no path to go on

I realized that I had arrived at me

At a place where nothing would split up and dissolve

Where everything was contained and every power was mine

Here there were no dilemmas

No forks in the road, no emotional turmoils

I floated in a thoughtless calm, in a delicate clarity of self

My energies centralized

My energies quantified

Each vibration adjusting its frequency to a multiple of my core  

Then my body moved to the tune of a new found rhythm

A fearless rhythm of expression

So that I may communicate

So that I may keep in touch with my soul.