To A New Beginning...

Ever noticed how a dry leaf falls off a tree? It detaches itself from the branches and sways with the wind, and then finally rests itself on the ground.  It is not a quick fall, it happens gradually. Suddenly, another gush of the wind and it is taken to someplace else.

Isn’t that how life is sometimes? We think we have it all. We feel we have reached the pinnacles of success. We believe there is no end to us and then when the time comes…we fall... fall like the dried leaf. And people knock us around. They test our patience and see how much farther we can be moved. And eventually life happens. We get stepped on and crushed. Our remnants wouldn't mean a thing.

Once a fresh green leaf now lies withered and forgotten.

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Well the year has come to an end. There is no feeling of joy or celebration. People look at New Years as a chance to party, drink, get sloshed and make resolutions, whereas I have always spent it at home. Never made any resolutions, because I know I won’t keep them & eventually will forget about it. Anyway, for me, 2012 marks the end of a year; I don’t think I’ll forget for a really long time.

Let’s start. The year saw me and A.M. complete 4 years of togetherness. But it also came with me ending things with him quite abruptly. So yes, I & A.M. are no more together. It has its own downside. There are times I miss him like crazy. There are times when all I want to do is stay in his arms and there are times I miss everything. Every little moment. But I had to get out of it and so that’s what I did. BUT, what matters today is I have finally let go. I know I can deal with this. I can be ruthless and weird like that. So trusting, this is for the better.

I joined College this year for my Masters, and have met a bunch of wonderful people. Life’s never been this kind to me. Every new emotion I feel and the joy I receive, I can thank the Lord over & over again, and it will just never be enough.

A lot of bitter relationships which had ended in the past have come to the surface. Mended my ways with a couple of friends, and it feels good. Who likes being aloof anyway?

My parents’ health has been good. After seeing a lot of troubled times, we have seen a ray of hope. Bonded with relatives and met new ones.

I think I have also seen myself grow. People might say I’ve changed and that things aren’t the same. I have heard a lot of advice this year, but I have followed my heart without questioning it. And trust me, it has been worth it. I’ve somehow evolved and I feel it. And that’s what matters to me.

All in all, I just have to say that New Year gives us an opportunity. A chance to set things right and reflect and look at the road ahead. It gives you a chance to leave your past behind and venture forth.. Thank God we can do that!

So let’s erase the imperfections. Leave aside all the heartbreaks and sorrows and rejoice. For life is nothing but a roller-coaster ride. There will be ups and downs, but what counts is the journey.

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all my readers. Wishing you a great year! J