MBA/PR - To do or not to do?

Just when I thought vacations were all about fun, going out, meeting old friends and chilling, never did I realize with great joy comes great responsibility.

Well yes I’m partially a Graduate, with the exception of receiving my PASS Certificate. And I think I will pass. But with the end of the exams and beginning of vacation, all that I hear day in & day out is- WHAT NEXT? Every Auntie, Uncle, Neighbor, Security, Tom Dick & harry are asking me this.

 Uhhhhh..Initially I said MBA or Media. But after receiving my CAT and CET scores, MBA is WELL out of the question. As for media, my interest lies there but again it’s not a stable career or so my parents think (I can’t but somehow agree to that). 

I want to do PR and well honestly 10 years down the line, I know I can’t keep doing that. Fresh faces, budding talent, opportunity to the youth blah blah. That phase will come and well you can do nothing to stop it. I’ll have to quit. Then what! Also I know if I do get married, my husband would want me to be at home when he arrives, rather than enter when he’s fast asleep. In this age, both the partners have to earn to make a living. I mean you can’t completely depend on one person’s salary, you HAVE to earn. And PR won’t let me do that, unless I’m extremely amazing at what I do and set up my own firm or something.

 Again MBA in Finance, now seems like a distant dream. For one, if I wish to pursue MBA, I must do it from a good University or forego the idea. And the other option is - Donation. Well I’m totally against that idea. I want to achieve on merit basis and not feel indebted to anyone for what I achieve. Also both my parents being retired, I don’t want to pressurize them. Amma says she’s ready to shell out the cash if I really want to study (she’s such a darling!), but really is it worth it? I don’t think so.

I know I should’ve worked hard. I didn’t put the efforts and hence no result. Had I studied, I most definitely would have ended up in a good institute rather than stick to mediocre ones. Well no point crying over spilt milk.

I’ve decided to put up my resume on job portals. But yet again, I’m not ready for work. I know I can’t do a 9-5 desk job and even if I do, I wouldn't be content. But doing a job, would give me some amount of security and stability. I’ll have a steady income and know that in future, I’d retire when I HAVE TO retire. Phew! Whatever happened to “do what you want to” or “what your heart says” line? In reality, it never works. Or maybe, it just doesn't work for me. I can’t stay home for a year doing nothing in the pretext of appearing for an MBA next year. Gosh I’m so messed up! L .. All I do the entire day is surf colleges, their eligibility criteria, fee structure, send mails and get disappointed. I really let my parents down. And that feeling of helplessness but outward courage and faith in my Amma’s eyes pinches me more.

God please just help me out here! I really need your help. Guide me, show me the light. Show me what I should do and make my decisions sound sane.

Till then folks, please tell me what you think?

Don’t sympathize with me (if you have any intentions to) coz here it is my fault. But yes, advice is welcome. And if you know any colleges which accept people with a low score, I’m all ears :/ ..

Thanks for hearing me out. Gosh I feel better!